You Wanted to Come Here...
Sunday March 21: I was on the terrace chanting japa with Gurumaharaja. We were walking back and forth together. Gurumaharaja sat down in a chair and asked me “What is the news?”
I asked, “On what front?” I am busy in so many areas. Gurumaharaja asked, “What about Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead?”
I went on to describe different services, LOK.STUDIO construction, etc. I also changed the mood a little and spoke about some frustrations I was having with the workers, and some difficulties. It probably sounded like I was complaining.
“You are the one who wanted to come here!” Gurumaharaja said in a chastising way. It gave me the realization that coming to the material world is no bed of roses. I should not be expecting everything to be easy as pie.
Through this exchange, I have some realizations. I need to be more remoseful that I have come to this material world. I need to be repentant. I need to seek to overcome my envy of Lord Krishna and his devotees. In the words of Sanatana Goswami, “Who am I and why am I suffering?” are the important questions I need to continously be asking myself.
Someday if I have the courage, I may ask Gurumaharaja, “Why did you come to the material world?” I would not be suprised, if I was very suprised by his answer.